As melodramatic as this may seem, I am lost. I am lost and indecisive, fickle and inconsistent. I feel like a piece of newspaper, being blown by the wind, directionless. For the nth time, I do not know what to do again. It's getting exasperating to contemplate on things and decide for myself. REALLLLLLLLLY. It may be normal but it drives me to the edge of sanity. Deciding for 'career' and everything, that is. Plus, the sometimes depressing absence of a romantic relationship in my life. I know, this is hilarious but there are just times when I wonder and wonder and wonder if I'll ever be in love. Being single is fun but there are those moments of suffering on my part when I see couples one after another and I feel extremely plain and unattractive just because I don't have what they have. The downsides of being picky and idealistic, yes. I've realized that it is hard to be a young adult where opportunities are many, the world is within your reach and yet, too many walls are building around you. And whatever decisions you make, they will always be criticized. =/
I'm growing old, and not growing up.
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