Happiness is a mental state of well-being characterized by positive emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy. A variety of biological, psychological,religious, and philosophical approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.
- Wikipedia
I can't say that I'm completely unhappy. It's just sometimes I feel so miserable and helpless. All the chances and opportunities I've wasted are all coming back to me, haunting me. I know that everyone experiences things like that but for me it happens like, yeah, everyday. You know the moment when one tiny word or action triggers every frustration you have and in a split second, you're weeping like crazy? It sucks.
I don't why I'm feeling so dejected for the same mystery to me as to why it is sometimes so hard for me to feel the joy of being free, young and healthy. I DO NOT KNOW. For starters, I do not know what I want. There are too many choices being shoved to my face that I cannot see where I am actually going anymore. Do I want to work abroad? Do I want to get a Master's degree and teach? Do I want to work in Manila because my sister's friend is offering a job? Do I want to..aaaaaaaaaaargh!
A friend of mine told me once that maybe I always feel like there is something I am missing because I haven't been in a relationship yet. That maybe, it is what I am actually missing. Well. I don't know about that. I can't force it to happen, can I? I will not be compelled to get myself in a relationship just because everyone is pushing me into it.
I want to be happy. Everybody wants to be happy. Who doesn't want to?
