A Late New Year's Resolution

I realized that it's darn difficult to break a habit.Once you get used to it,it takes a heck of time to change it.You know it's not good for you but you keep on doing it.And no matter how many times you say "I'm not going to do it again",well,you still do.Mine is sleeping late.Maybe it's fine if I'm doing something important that needs to be abruptly finished.But no,I'm doing nothing necessary at all.I'm just playing Yoville and Cafe World,doing blog posts that I delete after I've typed because I suddenly didn't like to post them,chat with the other nocturnal creatures,read others' posts and statuses or simply stare at my profile in Facebook.I want to watch Anime or Kdoramas at night but it would possibly awaken the people here.So,I never dare to.Oftentimes,my mind still works until past 2 am.

I promised a million times before to sleep early,11 pm would do.But I have annoyingly failed.When I start to sit in front of the computer,it's challenging for someone to tell me to get lost.What I need is force,shouting,pulling,dragging.Yes,I'm addicted to Internet.So,back to the topic.When I sleep at around 2 am,I surely wake up at past 10 or 11 am.And I endure the consequence that I face everyday called dizziness.It's absolutely becauseI have a refractive defect in the eyes called nearsightedness but I'm still abusing them.And then my mother would start lecturing me about the importance of getting proper sleep.I would just say, "I know" like I really am going to do it.But I feel terrible waking up late.It's never a good feeling.At Wednesdays,I have a class at 7:30 am and it's remarkable that I have the energy to wake up at 6:30 (I know,I'm late for school for waking up at that time).

Well,here's the bottomline.I'm trying,really trying to sleep early to be able to wake up early and somehow exercise.LOL.There's no denying that I'm getting fat that causes the usual jokes of people around me.And I'm not pleased to be called as chubby.Plus,pimples are attacking my face.As a friend have retorted,"Kaya man palan piga-pimples ka" when he asked if I'm always sleeping late.Is there a truth behind the belief that you'll get pimples when sleeping late?Or is it just purely a myth?Well,I'll google it later.So,from now on,I'm going to sleep early as much as possible.But I know that it would never be a piece of cake.Never.After all,habits are habits.


"Habit is a cable;we weave a thread of it every day,and at last we cannot break it."
-Horace Mann

Tsk.

I'm Not Miserable,I Just Feel Like I Am

Lately I do not feel like doing anything.I just want to lie in my bed,stare at nothing or pretend to sleep because I do not want to sleep.The apathy that controls me is undaunted and it hinders me from doing the necessary things and even the enjoyable ones.It surprisingly bores me to read a book or even to talk with the people here in the house.I find every little thing difficult to do.Even the mere action of eating and taking a bath disinterests me.I haven't finished anything,not the already due article nor the first chapter of our feasibility study.And I'm blaming these all to the crappy weather.How I loathe the rain!And the windy days.Aaarrgh.It's really getting on my nerves.