Mayhap?

I'm having second thoughts.

Well, when was I ever sure of anything anyway?

I've always been fickle and indecisive when it comes to making decisions.

But boy, I want it. And I need it.

It will be a chance for me to stand on my own two feet.

To feel that I'm a grown-up who is not dependent on my mother.

To prove that I can manage being alone in a foreign country.

I know that if I'll ever let the opportunity pass, it'll be one of the biggest regrets I'll ever have.

I'm just thinking, wondering if I can really do it.

But how will I ever know if I will not try, right?